When Your Body Carries a Pain No One Else Can See
You are dealing with something that affects every part of your daily life, and the discomfort is relentless. It sits deep inside the body where no one can see it, but you feel it constantly.
You do not need to explain to Hashem what you are going through. He already knows. He formed the kidneys. He understands the pain you carry. And He hears the tefillah of someone who turns to Him from that place.
A work published as Shimush Tehillim, often attributed to Rav Hai Gaon, associates the Tet stanza of Tehillim 119 (verses 65–72), which speaks of Hashem’s goodness, discernment, and learning through affliction, with kidney ailments. These eight pesukim speak of recognizing Hashem’s goodness even when the body is struggling. When you say this prayer for kidney illness, you are placing your healing directly in His hands.
Before You Say This Kapitel
Find a quiet moment. Let everything else fall away. You are standing before Hashem as someone in pain, and He already sees what you carry. Before you begin, open your heart with this tefillah:
Master of the Universe, my kidneys are in pain — the ache is deep inside the body and there is no rest. You examine the kidneys and heart. Heal my kidneys, purify my body, and restore me to complete health. God of Meir, answer me.
If giving tzedakah, add:
In the merit of the tzedakah I give in the merit of Rabbi Meir so may You purify my body from within. Ribbono Shel Olam, I care for Your children. Please care for me.
Tehillim 119: The Full Prayer
טוֹב עָשִׂיתָ עִם־עַבְדְּךָ יְהֹוָה כִּדְבָרֶךָ׃
טוּב טַעַם וָדַעַת לַמְּדֵנִי כִּי בְמִצְוֺתֶיךָ הֶאֱמָנְתִּי׃
טֶרֶם אֶעֱנֶה אֲנִי שֹׁגֵג וְעַתָּה אִמְרָתְךָ שָׁמָרְתִּי׃
טוֹב אַתָּה וּמֵטִיב לַמְּדֵנִי חֻקֶּיךָ׃
טָפְלוּ עָלַי שֶׁקֶר זֵדִים אֲנִי בְּכׇל־לֵב אֶצֹּר פִּקּוּדֶיךָ׃
טָפַשׁ כַּחֵלֶב לִבָּם אֲנִי תּוֹרָתְךָ שִׁעֲשָׁעְתִּי׃
טוֹב־לִי כִי־עֻנֵּיתִי לְמַעַן אֶלְמַד חֻקֶּיךָ׃
טוֹב־לִי תוֹרַת־פִּיךָ מֵאַלְפֵי זָהָב וָכָסֶף׃
Toiv osiso im avdecho Hashem kidvorecho.
Tuv ta’am voda’as lamdeni ki b’mitzvoisecho he’emanti.
Terem e’eneh ani shoigeg v’atoh imroscho shomarti.
Toiv atoh umeisiv lamdeni chukecho.
Toflu olai sheker zeidim ani b’chol leiv etzoir pikudecho.
Tofash kacheilev libom ani soiroscho shi’asha’ti.
Toiv li ki uneisi l’ma’an elmad chukecho.
Toiv li toiras picho me’alfei zohov vochosef.
Tov asita im avdecha Hashem kidvarecha.
Tuv ta’am vada’at lamdeni ki bemitzvotecha he’emanti.
Terem e’eneh ani shogeg ve’ata imratecha shamarti.
Tov ata umetiv lamdeni chukecha.
Taflu alai sheker zedim ani bechol lev etzor pikudecha.
Tafish kachelev libam ani toratecha shi’asha’ti.
Tov li ki uneti lema’an elmad chukecha.
Tov li torat picha me’alfei zahav vachasef.
You have treated Your servant well, according to Your word, O God.
Teach me good sense and knowledge, for I have put my trust in Your commandments.
Before I was humbled I went astray, but now I keep Your word.
You are good and beneficent; teach me Your laws.
Though the arrogant have accused me falsely, I observe Your precepts wholeheartedly.
Their minds are thick like fat; as for me, Your teaching is my delight.
It was good for me that I was humbled, so that I might learn Your laws.
I prefer the teaching You proclaimed to thousands of gold and silver pieces.
Kapitel 119 is unique in all of Tehillim. Each of its 22 stanzas is built around one letter of the aleph-beis, and every pasuk within a stanza begins with that letter. Dovid HaMelech composed these 176 pesukim b’ruach hakodesh, expressing the deepest longing of a neshamah for closeness to Hashem through Torah and mitzvos. The Shimush Tehillim tradition, attributed to Rav Hai Gaon, teaches that the Tet stanza carries a special power for healing kidney ailments. This stanza centers on recognizing Hashem’s goodness even through suffering, and the meforshim explain that affliction can become a path to deeper trust and learning. In Tanach, the kidneys are also linked with the inner moral life; in Psalm 16:7, they represent the seat of conscience and inward guidance. In that sense, healing the kidneys reflects not only physical recovery, but a restoration of inner balance and wholeness.
What These Words Mean for You
Toiv osiso im avdecho “You have treated Your servant well.” (119:65)
This is how Dovid opens the Tet stanza. Not with a complaint, but with recognition: Hashem, You have been good to me.
When a person is in pain, these words can be hard to say. That is exactly what gives them weight. In this section of Tehillim, the language of “good” returns again and again. Dovid keeps coming back to the same truth: Hashem is good, and what He does is good, even when a person does not yet understand it. Saying these words in a time of suffering is an act of emunah.
Tuv ta’am voda’as lamdeni “Teach me good sense and knowledge.” (119:66)
Dovid asks Hashem for discernment and knowledge.
The verse does not speak explicitly about illness or treatment, but it lends itself naturally to that tefillah. In a time of confusion, a person can ask Hashem for clarity: help me think clearly, choose wisely, and understand what is in front of me. Toiv atoh umeisiv “You are good and beneficent.” (119:68)
These few words say something very large: Hashem is good, and He does good.
This verse strongly echoes the language of HaTov VeHaMeitiv. Berakhot 54a teaches that one blesses HaTov VeHaMeitiv on good tidings, and Berakhot 59b expands on cases where that blessing is said. Dovid’s point here is not the formal halachah of the brachah, but the deeper truth behind it: Hashem is good, and He does good, even when a person is struggling. Toiv li ki uneisi “It was good for me that I was humbled.” (119:71)
This is one of the hardest pesukim in Tehillim. Dovid says that affliction itself became the path through which he learned Hashem’s statutes.
This is not a light sentence, and it should not be used lightly. The verse does not tell a suffering person to pretend pain is easy. It does say that, in Dovid’s experience, suffering opened a deeper path to Torah and dependence on Hashem.
How to Say This Prayer
You can say this kapitel at any time. Many people say it in the morning, before the day begins and the heaviness settles in. Others say it at night, when they are alone with their pain and can talk to Hashem without distraction. Say it whenever your heart pulls you.
Sitting, standing, or lying in a hospital bed. If you are too tired or too weak to read the Hebrew, say it in English or follow the transliteration. Hashem hears the tefillah of someone in pain in every language. A related tefillah that speaks to this same yearning is the jewish prayer for healing after surgery.
Before you begin, set your kavanah. You might say quietly: “Hashem, You formed every part of my body. You know exactly what is happening inside me. I am asking You to heal my kidneys, wash away the illness, and restore me to complete health.”
Tefillah and tzedakah have a deep connection. Chazal teach that teshuvah, tefillah, and tzedakah together avert harsh decrees (see Rosh Hashanah 16b and the Yamim Noraim machzor). When you say this kapitel and also give tzedakah in the zechus of Rabbi Meir Baal Haness, both rise together. You are asking Hashem to hear your tefillah in the combined zechus of a great tzaddik and your own act of chesed. After the kapitel, you may say: Elokah d’Meir aneni!
Give Tzedakah in the Zechus of Rabbi Meir Baal Haness
The Gemara in Avodah Zarah (18a-18b) tells how Bruria asked Rabbi Meir to rescue her sister, who was condemned by the Romans to a house of shame. There seemed to be no way out. Rabbi Meir approached the guard, teaching him to say “Elokah d’Meir aneni!” — “God of Meir, answer me!” — if he was ever in danger. When the guard asked for proof, Rabbi Meir said the words and nearby dogs that had been ready to attack turned away. The guard was convinced and released her.
That cry is the same one you carry now. You are asking Hashem to bring healing from a place of deep pain. Giving tzedakah in the zechus of Rabbi Meir is asking Hashem to hear your tefillah in the combined merit of this great tzaddik and your own act of caring for others.
Rabbi Meir Baal Haness Charities was founded in 1799. It supports talmidei chachamim and the poor in Eretz Yisrael. The talmidei chachamim at the kever of Rabbi Meir in Tiberias daven for those who reach out to them. When you give tzedakah for the poor of Eretz Yisrael in the zechus of Rabbi Meir Baal Haness, your chesed rises together with your tefillah. Those who say this tefillah often also turn to the prayer for recovery after medical fear.
Give Tzedakah in the Zechus of Rabbi Meir Baal Haness The Shimush Tehillim, attributed to Rav Hai Gaon, designates the Tet stanza of Tehillim 119 (pesukim 65-72) specifically for kidney ailments. These eight pesukim speak about Hashem’s goodness and ask for understanding, making them a fitting tefillah for someone going through this kind of illness. Yes. You can say this kapitel on behalf of anyone who is ill. Hold their Hebrew name in your heart as you say it: [Name] ben or bas [Mother’s Name]. Your tefillah for another Yid carries tremendous weight before Hashem. Both. Tefillah and medical care are not in competition. Daven before your appointment, asking Hashem to guide the doctor’s hands and judgment. Continue davening during and after treatment. Hashem works through natural means, and a doctor’s skill is one of them. God of Meir, answer me” comes from the Gemara in Avodah Zarah 18a. Rabbi Meir told the guard to say these words if he was ever in danger, and Rabbi Meir then demonstrated their power himself. The guard later used these powerful words to miraculously save his ownlife. When we daven with these words, we are asking Hashem to answer our prayer in the merit of this great tzaddik and the miracles he merited. The jewish prayer for good health touches on a similar longing and is worth saying alongside this tefillah. Tzedakah adds a real act of chesed to your tefillah. The pasuk in Mishlei (10:2) teaches that tzedakah saves from death. You are caring for others while asking Hashem to care for you. Generations of Yidden have given in the zechus of Rabbi Meir Baal Haness at their most difficult moments.
A Prayer for Your Recovery
That itself is already a tefillah.
May the Rofei chol basar, the Healer of all flesh, send you a complete refuah sheleimah. May your kidneys be healed, your body be strengthened, and your pain ease until it is gone. May the doctors who treat you have siyata dishmaya in everything they do. And may you, who turned to Hashem from a place of real suffering, see with your own eyes that He is tov umeisiv — good and doing good — in your life and in your body.
You can submit a prayer request to the talmidei chachamim at the kever of Rabbi Meir in Tiberias. They will daven for your healing by name through Rabbi Meir Baal Haness Charities. And if you would like to give tzedakah in Rabbi Meir’s zechus as well, your chesed will rise together with your tefillah.